Ann Marie Hak

: ' ? ' . . ... ... Poem 1 of 2 (Cont. tomorrow) Backstory: I'm peeling through my notes app to almost three years back of poems and quotes that I've been meaning to turn into art pieces. The majority of them are about my struggles and growth in past relationships. Since the release of Paranormal Nudes, I've been very intentional about the theme each photo expresses, and that the flanking art pieces (my "marble abstracts" like this one, and the "celestial watercolour orbs") reflect similar messages. (The theme for each three-piece set is in the caption of the "glitch polaroids") This set is about Desperate to Make Love. I wrote this poem (and the one following it tomorrow) on August 4, 2019. It was a reflection of the first year of what turned out to be a long 5 year on and off casual relationship I had. This past partner was all kinds of unavailable to me. I romantically fantasized about telling him this statement. The date I wrote it is also significant to me because it just so happened that I recorded it on the birthday of my very first love, who was also all kinds of unavailable. When I came across this note, I realized I had also said something similar to my recent past-love. I feel like it fits the theme of my own desperation for the ultimate-soulmate relationship I have always wanted. It also is full of clarity of knowing exactly what I want. Which has given me the courage to stop chasing all kinds of unavailable. For more mental-art, follow me on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/byannmariehak/

: . ... Paranormal Nudes #005... Story: My ghost-alien visitor and I said, "Let's merge/make love." ... THEME: Desperate to Make Love. .. This was the hardest lesson that came out of my recent relationship. It was also the most powerful because it was a new lesson, something I have never learned before. One of my favourite memories with M is when we were at a local shop that carried gemstones. A friend was with us, and M said, "Let's all pick a rock for each other that reminds us of the other person." Without looking at the properties of the rocks, we each pulled one that called the other's spirit. Both M and our friend picked rocks for me whose main healing property was COMMUNICATION... The trait I am most fond of about M is that he is one of the best communicators I have ever met. (I am writing this 15 days before it will post, and I have no idea where M and I will be in terms of if we'll have been able to maintain a friendship... I just clocked in my need to write this disclaimer after my earlier statement because I'm already experiencing potential sadness over the fact that our beautiful communication skills may not be enough... I hope in 15 days this post will bring some kindness and grounding energy if this is the case.) M was going through a lot. I won't say what, because that is his story. My story is that what was so ultimately-beautiful about our relationship was that we could talk through anything. The hurt that comes from this is that this great gift was also the greatest risk to me... Perhaps to us both. - , . ; ; . . . I am grateful for our last memory as lovers... We sat in your car in the driveway of my current home, sharing the big positive and beautiful takeaways we received from this relationship. For more mental-art, follow me on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/byannmariehak/

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