Caitlin Royal Pet Loss And Bereavement Counselling

Sitting here drinking my morning coffee, and thinking of my Heart-Dog William. Have you lost a dear pet? What was their name?

Apologies for not positng for a long time. Life got very busy and I've had to put my counseling on the back burner. But something happened this weekend that I feel I need to share. I've been fighting with myself the last 48 hours. I can't hold it in any longer. My best friend said this about recently losing her cat of 19 years. "19 years is a long time to have someone and just like that they're gone." I responded "I know. You just get used to living without them. It sucks." ...That got me thinking about Mom. My mother passed away a few years ago. 34 years I had someone and just like that she was gone. I wish I never had to get used to living without her. My daughters noticed I wasn't myself today, so I told them I was sad because I miss my mom. Just now, Ellie 3 years old, bless her heart, said we can go to her house tomorrow to see her. I explained that we can't because she isn't alive anymore. She's up in the sky with the stars and I can't go visit her anymore. And now I can't hold it in anymore. It feels like I lost her yesterday. I wish so hard that I COULD go to her house tomorrow. That I COULD call her and tell her everything. I feel so broken and lost. It hurts so much. I know this feeling will pass again, as it always does, but god does it hurt. I'm posting this so everyone can see it, in hopes that you will know this is normal. You're not going crazy. You're not "stuck". You NEVER move on from a loss. The only thing you can do is move forward. You don't leave them behind, you carry them with you in your heart as you move forward. My wave of grief will pass, and I will keep moving forward, but I will allow myself to hurt and cry and scream while this wave almost drowns me. It's ok to cry. It ok to hurt. My new favourite song says " Its okay to break, to come undone. Pick up the pieces one by one. Broken hearts are stronger when they mend. And it's alright to cry a thousand times then find yourself then lose your mind, for all, in time, will fall in line again." If you are missing someone, be it a pet, a friend, or a family member, please know that I am right there with you. I get it. Today I cry and scream and grieve. Tomorrow I straighten my crown and keep moving forward.