MY My Journey With Mental Illness Blog

I thought my video post was posted

Didn’t want to seem that i was wanting attention by asking you if I helped, it’s just I want to hear from you all, that’s what I was asking, sometimes my illness makes me not be able to explain things very clear, I apologize if I seem attention grabbing lol.

Do you ever wonder how you ever got through all these years suffering from depression/anxiety, and how so many have,and still do,fall through the cracks,and become a statistic? Even though I am a survivor of mental illness, and so fortunate to be able to share my journey living with this invisible strife, I still think of those beautiful souls who couldn’t take it anymore, and because of the pain and helplessness they lived with, they couldn’t share their survivor stories, an...d let us all delve into their demons and struggles, in turn help guide other people through the stigma and societal judgement, that we as sufferers fight every day. I feel a mix of gratitude and sadness, gratitude that I am here telling my story and in a very content place( I’m not cured lol), but sadness in that so many beautiful lives were taken because of the underlying pain that this stigma projected on their lives, and it still continues to take lives, especially during this pandemic. I’m here to tell all of you out there, that although there will be insurmountable pain and anguish, a lot of frustration, ebbing and flowing in your journey to get to a real contented life, all of it will be so so worth it, when all is said and done, BUT YOU MUST MUST stay the course and stay steadfast to get where you deserve to be, contentment and control of your mind for once in your life. You can do it, you are important to this world and you are beautiful. Take care of each other, keep fighting and keep soldiering on. Remember always, mental illness does not define you or your character, it’s not your personality and it’s nothing you should be ashamed of, and you are never alone. Thank you for all your continued support, love you all and god bless. See more

Hello and happy Tuesday , I hope everyone is well and staying safe. I am good,with a little irritability and frustration, due to the process with moving and the clutter of packing and everything in disarray, cause change in any manner, sends me over the edge, making me overthink more, and it also makes me very impatient long before we have to move, it might seem like it’s small in stature, but all this change makes my journey a little more rockier, because I’m not exactly in ...control of the situation, if that makes sense, and this feeling of being not in control, scares me and I hate the feeling as a whole. Besides all this chaos and bedlam, I’ve had a couple of sinus related headaches that are so painful and very hard to treat, but I find Benelyn sinus cold and flu capsules help a lot,but it doesn’t take it away fully, but it eases it, but I have yet to find something that erases the pain from my skull. I hope you all can take something from any of my posts that can help you or someone you know in their journey with mental illness. Sometimes, with mental illness,there will be trying times,and times where you might feel really exhausted and at the end of your rope, because physically, not only mentally, it takes a toll on your body, but you must, I mean must stay the course and persevere and never ever give up, and I assure you and promise you, you will come out the other side, a different, but, a real you, because it’s not your personality, it never was, you will finally realize that you are enough and that you are worthy. Take care, keep fighting and keep soldiering on. See more

Good Friday evening and happy Easter weekend to you all, stay safe and follow protocols. Yesterday, I was out and about, running errands and getting bills paid and felt very anxious, even though my wife was with me, I was fidgety but still did it, so that was and always is promising and positive, as I move forward, not regressing. I’m sure there’s always steps back that I take, but everyone has that happen to them, albeit, when you have mental illness, it’s a little bit more ...heightened than the normal bad days that a non-sufferer will undergo. We sold our condominium and by the end of this month, we will be moving in our new house, this brings, not only happiness with moving into a new dwelling and new beginnings, it also brings to me in particular, a set of different emotions and feelings, like change in routine and the stress and exhaustion it takes on my whole body both physically and mentally, and has I explained in earlier posts, change brings a lot of irritability and frustration, it’s little in ways of seriousness, looking from the outside in, but for me battling mental illness , it’s Defcon 5, a very serious matter that makes me feel very agitated and it’s disrupts everything. I’m not there yet, but I’m just informing all of you the toll change takes on me most of the time, and the impact it could bring as the day for moving nears. I will get through it I’m sure, but it’s very trying, but like my journey so far, every obstacle that awaited me then, was crushed like they will be now, so anytime you are faced with adversity in your own fight, remember, no matter how bad and dark, how helpless and hopeless you will feel during this process, it is nothing compared to the normalcy and contentment and the joy you will feel, when you find the help you need, a place to start over, the new and real you, not the picture mental illness tries to paint. Take care, keep fighting and keep soldiering on, you are enough and you will triumph. See more