Freckled Photo

I am planning a small-scale styled wedding shoot/shootout event with @folkedge.photography for this spring! Of course due to our restrictions we haven’t been able to plan much but would like to get some wheels in motion as I’m sure we’ll be overwhelmed once we’re allowed to start shooting and gathering again. We’re looking for vendors to join us, as well as a couple to model for us. The couple must be super okay with PDA’s, snuggles, and be willing participants. The dress I ...ordered is a medium but is likely versatile sizing. If this is you, hit us up! This was shot at @starlitpoint at a shootout I was a part of last summer! Hosts & Designers @caseynolinphotography + @inspired_elegance_events Venue @starlitpoint Florals @deerdutch Linens/Decor @plannedperfectly + @ctrentals Stationary @kindregardscalligraphy Hair @carlyyceehair Makeup @makeupbykarlakosmetics Furniture @thevintagenestrentalco Dresses @pearlandbirch Dishes @lot.ceramics Calligraphy @blakecreativeco Jewelry @lunaandstone Cake @laughlovecakes Models @chris_faial & @laurenhermann_ #manitobaweddingphotographer #westmanweddingphotographer #winnipegweddingphotographer #portagelaprairiephotographer #weddingphotographer #sunsetweddingpics #goldenhour #thatlightthough #prairieskies #unposedweddingphotography #weddingpictures #magichour #chasinglight #styledshoot #elopementlovepresets #winnipegwedding #nikon #85mm

Not your average get to know me post! I’ve stressed about how I would open up about this, should I even open up about this? Will people think I’m trying to get attention, or think I just want them to be sorry for me? But I know I’m not alone. I can’t have kids. I’ve known for years, before my hubby and I even got engaged. I’ve never been that person who dreamt of being a mother, my husband isn’t that person who dreamt of being a father. Perfect right? So, when I found out a...nd was diagnosed with PCOS, I just moved on...made sure this wasn’t a deal breaker. We talked about if we’d want to pursue other options. Then just simply moved on. I wasn’t ready for a kid yet anyway. The problem is that I never processed this information. I didn’t grieve or allow myself to really feel anything about it. I joked about not wanting kids to cover it. And please don’t get me wrong...I know I don’t want children and there’s nothing wrong with that. Even if I could, I’m not sure I would. But I never processed the fact that I couldn’t carry a child if I wanted to... Twelve years later...while watching our best friends’ kids ride in a little motocross race...I had a moment when a little boy fell off his bike and my hubby ran across that track like it was his own flesh and blood (don’t worry the kid was perfectly fine, just scared). At that moment it really hit me that that would never be our kid out there, and that’s when I truly realized I just pushed all of that down inside of me 12 years ago. I don’t know how to process it or what to even process. I just know I didn’t. I write these words to help you get to know me a bit better, to open myself up, to help me heal. Capturing YOUR joy brings me SO MUCH JOY, guys. I can’t explain it. This doesn’t mean that our minds have changed about raising children. It just means...well heck, I don’t even know what it means anymore. If you’ve made it this far, thank you. If you ever need to share your story, my DM’s and heart are open to you. : @folkedge.photography

Woah! It’s been a hot minute since I posted here! Not a lot going on these days. Are you still looking for that perfect last minute gift? I have gift cards available in any denomination that can be delivered directly to you inbox! Photos make the perfect gift that literally keeps giving.

A little sneak peek of some of the Christmas minis from last month! I have my husband and father in law actively looking for a truck like this for me to park in our bush...I have so many ideas...I just need one of my own!

These cool, dark evenings have me longing for summer already...for these golden tones and warm nights! And you know...shooting again!