I.S.H I'm Still Healing

Who would have thought in a million years I'd be shopping/inquiring for tombstone? I know its a bit dark for alot of us however its my reality and I did promise I'd be transparent throughout my journey. So lately I've been thinking about it especially this year in particular with Noah turning 18 in August, 2 years ago I couldn't process the idea of putting such a solid stone on his grave and refused to proceed when asked about it. I simply blocked it out my head for my own ...mental health. Can anyone relate to this or am I over thinking this? I'd like to hear from you. I'm still Healing.......

How does one cope with insomnia?How does one cope with insomnia?

From one mama to another the heart knows what it feels and words can never describe that pain. Let's keep pushing through

This post might be sensitive for some, this is a caution before reading. I haven't blogged for a while now, wanted to take alot of ME time to refill my vessel. Sharing my dream of Noah Just had a dream of my son, he was communicating with me writing on a cold frosted window, the dream felt so real as though I was actually there with him sitting while having a conversation like mother and son. One message that stood out the most to me was, him explaining to me hows he's able t...o communicate going forward.As he writes each message I had little time reading them before they were erased adding another. A bonus to that was, I he was playing some sort of sport that appeared to be table tennis of some sort. He smiled at me and not too long after I can see him floating towards the sky going upwards. All that was left in my dream was an image of my face with tears in my eyes. This isn't the 1st time I've dreamt about my son, however its the 1st time I was able to see a clear image of his face since his passing. It pained me so much to see him him go, it felt so real agian words cannot describe. The photo below was the smile I recall in my dream. My mesage back to Noah May your soul find eternal peace May you rest in heaven and be highly favored May your heart be light May you find comfort knowing that your spirit will live whithin me, your father, siblings and in all whom you've impacted Thank you for the comfort seeing you smile in my dreams May those who knows the true story of what happend at the canal find peace in their hearts You are loved and I will forever cherish you until we meet again. Love you eternally nonoe Sleep my baby boy Love "mama"

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I published my new episode Kelly Macnab "Isaiah's Story", please check it out https://www.podbean.com/ea/pb-kspai-e42bc2

Please share, this is my friend son passed away shortly after Noah. It's been 2 years now and it's time for Justice!

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Part 3 Here’s a show for you Paul Ruddock "Breaking The Silence" Part 3 episode of ISH! I'm Still Healing's Podcast https://open.spotify.com/episode/5zQgt7sJMxLdDrakZ5uvBJ

Part 2 I published my new episode Paul Ruddock "Breaking the Silence" part 2, please check it out https://www.podbean.com/ea/pb-9qdyw-eaf75c

Part 1, must listen https://www.podbean.com/ea/pb-s8t4v-ea1be8