Josiah+co.

6 years. It’s been 6 years... ... since I held these tiny hands in mine.... ... since I said hello and goodbye all in one breath. Josiah, I don’t have many words today except we miss you. We wish you were here and not in the stars. * * * #pregnancyafterloss #miscarriagesupport #parentingafterloss #mamagrief #miscarriagesurvivor #recurrentmiscarriage #ihadamiscarriage #grievingmother #stillbornstillloved #stillbirthawareness #bereavedmother #saytheirnames #griefjourney #griefsupport #honestmotherhood #storytellingmama #bekindtoyourmind #realtalk #miscarriageawareness #momentsofjoy #griefandloss #griefsucks #fuckloss #fuckmiscarriage

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I never thought I would reach this point in a pregnancy again. I was starting to lose hope. Every positive pregnancy test in the past 4 years has been met with fear and a giant f#%* here we go again.... I’ve lost 4 babies in between Eliyanah and this pregnancy. I held 3 of them in the palm of my hands after being induced. The 4th I skipped straight to a D&C at an abortion clinic during covid because I wanted to spare my body the trauma of delivering a 12-week tiny being. These past 4 years have been a giant shit show; and that doesn’t even include the years before when I lost Josiah and our two tiny beans. My body has been through a lot. But here I am... embracing a 36-week basketball-sized bump and I do not take it for granted for a second. Do I have bad days filled with fear and anxiety and just wishing it was over - um hell ya (I’m f#%*ing human) - but that doesn’t mean I’m not grateful. I’m grateful and still complain. I’m excited and still terrified. I’m joyous and still angry about the road it took to get here. ... because I’m human ... and this is pregnancy after loss. @dorothymay_ #pregnancyafterloss #recurrentmiscarriagesurvivor #ihadamiscarriage #stillmothers #lifeafterloss #motherhoodafterloss #lossmom #stillbirthmatters #miscarriagesurvivor #wearemothers #motherhoodrising #motherhoodunplugged #uniteinmotherhood #ig_motherhood #realparenthood #strongwomen #bravewomen #parentingafterloss #hamont #griefsucks

I’m curious how all my entrepreneurial small shop friends managed maternity leave... did you take one? Did you completely shut down orders? Did you save up to take a leave? What did you do? Spill all the details ... cause clearly I don’t have a plan yet ... * * * #handcraftedwithheavenbabiesinmind #giftswithmeaning #babybooties #madeincanada #holdthemoments #letthembelittle #mytinytribe #beyondthewanderlust #darlingdaily #craftsposure #worldoflittles #holdmetight #josiahandco #magicofchildhood #documentyourdays #thehappynow #pursuepretty #honestmotherhood #treasuringlittlememories #authenticlove #shopsmallbusiness #supportsmallshops #bossmom #minimalist #kidstyle #ministylekids #babyootd #heirloom #babyshoes

And just like that my dude is 7 I have a lot of feelings about this day. Mostly in awe that I get to be mom to this vibrant, energetic, hilarious dude.... But I’ve also been reflecting on my journey to get him here.... My pregnancy with him was one of the hardest seasons I have ever been through. Not because the pregnancy was physically difficult or because I had experienced pregnancy loss yet (because I hadn’t)... but because it was marred by the shame of evangelical purity culture. We got pregnant before we were married and I felt like I had to hide my entire pregnancy. I was terrified what other people would think, I was terrified it would jeopardize my job at a Christian ministry, and I was terrified I’d be ostracized in my community. Even though most of my friends and community were supportive and understanding, that shame still marked my entire pregnancy. I cried a lot in those early days. I even debated ending my pregnancy. But I chose to move forward, and I’m so thankful that I did. I can’t imagine my life without this dude. My journey with him sparked my long journey of deconstructing evangelicalism, becoming pro-choice and affirming, and overall becoming a more empathetic human to those around me. I wouldn’t change any of it for the world. I am so thankful for you Ezekiel. You have impacted me in more ways than you or I will ever know. Happy Birthday my lil’ love

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Sharing my story has been one of the most healing experiences as I’ve walked through recurrent pregnancy loss. There’s something about saying it out loud that lessens the pain... just a little bit. Has sharing your story been healing for you? What other ways have you experienced healing in your loss journey? *... * * #pregnancyafterloss #miscarriagesupport #parentingafterloss #mamagrief #miscarriagesurvivor #recurrentmiscarriage #ihadamiscarriage #grievingmother #stillbornstillloved #stillbirthawareness #bereavedmother #saytheirnames #griefjourney #griefsupport #honestmotherhood #storytellingmama #bekindtoyourmind #realtalk #miscarriageawareness #momentsofjoy #griefandloss #griefsucks #fuckloss #fuckmiscarriage See more