Justice Thomas "TJ" McIntyre Merch Fundraiser
Windsor, ON, Canada N9A Windsor, ON, Canada

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Ill forever miss u.... ottawa trip well pregnant with coleton... ill never forget hoe much u guys made me walk.. jerks! Geronimo!

Someone asked me yesterday what it’s like to have your childrens father murdered? Said they can’t imagine going through that. I said, it’s this.. going through this. It’s ongoing. There are days like this where I’m doing great. It’s a beautiful day weather wise. Thought of Halloween and my kids. And just then out of nowhere, you might hear a song. And fall on your knees crying. A cry that starts and ends deep in my very soul. You might need to talk about them at a family g...athering, remembering something they used to say or do but nobody wants to hear it or stick around because they don’t know what to say. You may just be stuck for an entire day not wanting to open the blinds and hear from anyone or do anything. It’s a battle that you are in for the rest of your life. While other people post family pictures and vacations, you don’t have anymore that are complete without their father, whom we were always together, even with our uos and downs... me and him were one! My backbone and strength! It sometimes pisses me off. I don’t know what it’s like to feel normal anymore because I’m not the same person or mother in fact that I used to be. Hard to enjoy certain things like Halloween, thanksgiving and Christmas is coming up...birthdays etc. no happy holidays anymore! An empty chair so you just don’t say anything at dinner. I could go on and on. I believe one day we will be reunited again. I thought about what I said afterwards and realized that my childrens father and I had a bond like no other. No matter what was going on in either of our lives we were open and honest and loved til the end.I thought i need to and will try harder every day to get back up and put my new face on until it fits better. The one that smiles through pain and shrugs at the little nonsense problems others complain about. The one that truly enjoys life after murder and all the while believing that every day I’m one step closer to being with him again. I hope each one of you can find the strength you need for today. And just for today, hold onto the love you have and remember the good time.... It can be brutal on some days.. like today as i sniff his sweater and cry in waves and cant breath...but I pray that just for today we remember the love... and i hope im closer to being away from this pain.. the guilt i have is unbearable and its always a be strong for ur kids.... but with the life ive lived i dont think i have much of strength left... and ppl always know me to be strong... but this one folks is one that is something i cant catch my breath with... Thomas McIntyre See more