Levi's Imagination Creations

Speaking for myself, at the moment. Things are very challenging to say the least. I guess it's kind of good that I like a challenge. But only one challange at a time. Not multiple all at once. But still, I'm wise enough to know that the key to getting past the consequences of a wrong decision made. Is to admit that I dropped the ball and ruined a chance for a more comfortable life. By making what seemed like a good "what's the worse that can happen" decision at the time. I In...advertently found out just how harsh the answer to that question is. Now I must grin and bare it, while life is humping my leg. Of which I am under no delusion to the contrary. That life will continue to teach its nasty lesson, until I do the nessassary work required to earn another chance at a better life. To help me do that, I must find the silver lining in this consequence, and find a way to use it as a positive, constructive way. Rather then continuously beating myself up for having a brain that is obviously wired in a way. That causes my thought process to steer me not from harms way but rather into it. Similar in the way a moth will fly into a flame. I don't know for sure if I will find that I am on the road to enlightenment? But I've come to this realization. That inwardly focused negativity leaves no room for any positivity. Furthermore, self-abuse is not the proper way to handling abrupt change.(or anything else for that matter) I either adapt to and overcome change, Or I don't. So I guess what I'm trying to tell myself is that I got myself into this mess. But judging from my past attempts of trying to live my life in a positve way I will fail. Asking for help is far from being a forte of mine. But even if it was it's just not that simple. Being on the receiving end of the stigma and negativity that is unfairly directed at both of those helping and those afflicted with addiction. Has me being mistrustful and wary of people that are trying to help me. This stigma is detrimental and tragically, it is preventing victims of child abuse and those with mental illnesses from receiving resources that are needed to rescue them. Right now they are being prevented by that stigma from being shown how to get away from existing in a reality that is totally immersed in negativity. Those resources would be a sound investment into changing the lost and shunned into the healthy and employable. Obviously such an undertaking won't happen overnight, if at all. Not without a willingness to change ones perspective. As Canadians would it be so bad if we started focusing our considerably humanitarian budget in on ourselves? Levi Royal Olsen

The Pure Fright of a Sight , I was lazily watching sports... While lounging in shorts As I sat in my chair. Snacking on a tasty eclair Seeing as my legs Were bare I felt a tickle go through the hair That grows down there Thinking it just a fly I shook my leg to make it go bye Still up it came and that's no lie When it slowly crested my knee A horrendous sight I did see The biggest and ugliest of all spiders I decree I Jumped up faster than the eye could see leaving behind a stain of pee With a bust of speed propelling me Out the front door I did so flee Glancing back I ran into a tree Inside my head a lightning bolt went crack What was heard was A loud sickning smack When off the tree I rebounded Painfully in a heap I was grounded Regaining consciousness was a relief No feelings for me of bereave I was really lucky was my belief The span of time was not brief That my family stared at me in disbelief I was filled With anger and grief For when I explained what was the matter That a big hairy spider used my leg as a ladder I was expecting concern instead I got mad then madder They were laughing at me like a insanely mad hatter I told them this ordeal has scared me a great deal The pain in my chest seamed surreal This ordeal has caused trauma From them came no voice of concern just a comment That I should go and cry to my mama It's times like this that make me wish that I was in the Bahamas Levi Royal Olsen