Understanding Addiction
PO BOX 21178 - Torbay Road A1A 5B2 St. John's, Newfoundland and Labrador, NL, Canada

VULNERABLE POST Please, please, I beg you, be gentle with your words. The Struggle is real and the pain lingers on. I've been living in recovery since 2007... for a VLT addiction, that almost took my life on more than one occasion. How I'm still here is a miracle. While trying to understand my addiction in therapy and rehabilitation I fell into another addiction, Marijuana. Thinking that this is better than Gambling, I dove into it and loved it. Huge mistake!!!!!!!! I could numb the pain inside and not leave my house. Now, I'm substituting!!!! NOT ANYMORE. I've taken control back. ONE MOMENT AT A TIME, ONE THOUGHT AT A TIME. Although, I'm not active in my gambling addiction, I still live out every moment in my head that hurt the people I love, over and over. Guilt, I carry it like a ton of bricks. Life after you take control of you, is wonderful, scary at times, but truly wonderful. I'm learning how to change the habit of being myself, and rewire my brain to fire in different paths. I'm learning to be Healthy, Happy, and aware. I'm also learning how to open my heart and my eyes to the future. I'm actually visioning a future for myself now, something I denied myself for years. I'm having fun with it and loving it, NOW Fall in love with your future they said. WTF. For years, all I could see was a wall of blackness, no future, no will, and no hope. A great friend of mine wrote a song that hit me hard and filled me with hope. Thank you for your words and wisdom Grace Shears. "Time to trust" . Yes I will trust in myself and my power. Thank you from the bottom of my heart and to the top of my soul . You are worth it, I am worth it. Peace to all

A reminder for all of you